keeping the faith
recently, i had a big fight with my boyfriend.
there was screamin, a lot of tears and eventually a very,very bad headache.
and right there i was just thinkin, while he was looking angry, that i love him so much and nothing, nothing can make me give up on this relationship.
funny sometimes, but it is the way it is.
i love him and thats the reason we had this fight. i just love him so much.
sometimes, we have a high expectation from our partners and thats okay, but when things not going the way we expect, we get angry. and i was angry with him. i was wrong.
i really hate comparing him to another man, my friends boyfriend, my sister boyfriend. and i hate myself more when i thought that he just not enough. because he do. he enough and he's more, more than enough. but sometimes i was so blind i cant see it. it is because my high expectation.
my friend told me, that her boyfriend was always there for her. 24/7. he always put her first on everything. and i know she felt sorry for me cause my guy dont. and its okay for her to do cause that time i felt sorry for myself too.
but then i realised how wrong i am. my boyfriend was always,always,always be there for me. and he doesnt need to put me first on everything he does, cause i'm the queen of her heart, and thats enough. he's not always there, not around 24/7. but then again, i dont need him 24/7, i dont need him to be always there, i dont need to make sure to myself that he'll be there for me. i dont need his presence to prove his love for me.
long before this, i always thought. i dont need a man to make me happy. i am capable of make myself happy. and i was half right. i dont need my bf to make me enjoy the day, but when his around, he make my day super.
i still have an expectation. but i tried to keep it low, i know he have an expectation on me too. i work on it. we both work on it.
and at some point, i know we're going to make it work. not because i love him and he love me, cause sometimes love just not enough.
its because i have faith in him and he have faith in me.
there was screamin, a lot of tears and eventually a very,very bad headache.
and right there i was just thinkin, while he was looking angry, that i love him so much and nothing, nothing can make me give up on this relationship.
funny sometimes, but it is the way it is.
i love him and thats the reason we had this fight. i just love him so much.
sometimes, we have a high expectation from our partners and thats okay, but when things not going the way we expect, we get angry. and i was angry with him. i was wrong.
i really hate comparing him to another man, my friends boyfriend, my sister boyfriend. and i hate myself more when i thought that he just not enough. because he do. he enough and he's more, more than enough. but sometimes i was so blind i cant see it. it is because my high expectation.
my friend told me, that her boyfriend was always there for her. 24/7. he always put her first on everything. and i know she felt sorry for me cause my guy dont. and its okay for her to do cause that time i felt sorry for myself too.
but then i realised how wrong i am. my boyfriend was always,always,always be there for me. and he doesnt need to put me first on everything he does, cause i'm the queen of her heart, and thats enough. he's not always there, not around 24/7. but then again, i dont need him 24/7, i dont need him to be always there, i dont need to make sure to myself that he'll be there for me. i dont need his presence to prove his love for me.
long before this, i always thought. i dont need a man to make me happy. i am capable of make myself happy. and i was half right. i dont need my bf to make me enjoy the day, but when his around, he make my day super.
i still have an expectation. but i tried to keep it low, i know he have an expectation on me too. i work on it. we both work on it.
and at some point, i know we're going to make it work. not because i love him and he love me, cause sometimes love just not enough.
its because i have faith in him and he have faith in me.
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