so criminal

kemarin Jiwa bikin kesel lagi.
kenapa sih gak pernah telepon?
gak pernah sms?

-huh-

It's weird that sometimes he can easily take the control of my mood.
angry. sad. lonely. then wonderfully happy.

kemarin Jiwa kerumah, and that's the happiest moment for me all this week!
Sorenya ke IP, makan Hau's Tea dan ngobrol-ngobrol.
Dia minta maaf soal sms dan telepon, tapi dia juga bilang that he need sometime with his friends, "karena gua udah gak lama disini, dan dulu waktu baru jadian sama elu, waktu gua bener-bener sepenuhnya buat elu, gua gak peduli sama temen-temen gua dan jadi jauh sama mereka."

I totally understand, cause I feel the same too..
but I just need a simple message everyday sayin he love me.
that couldn't be so hard rite?

all and all, yesterday was a wonderfull day.

I love him more and more.
plus, he look so GREAT with his new hair.

-kiss,kiss-

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Besok GaTor manggung.
with the dress to kill.
and the moves to thrill.
huh.

huh.

huh.huh.huh.

GaTor manggung gung gung.
Menari.
aku sama sekali tidak antusias.
kenapa ya?
huh.

Nur ga jadi manggung karena omnya di Jakarta harus operasi jantung.
Jangan sedih ya Nur, there always next time.
(are there?)
well, it'll be there for you.

Lagi-lagi belum baca Caramelo.
seneng deh ada yang pesen majalah, Miranda tmen sma gua. hehehe... ayo, ayo para pembeli!!

Huah... Teen Vogue, best demand deh!

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It's afrikaans for good morning..
I always thought languages is very interesting, dan mumpung lagi cari data buat cerita baruku sekalian liat2 bahasa2..
lagian disini kan gak ada yang ngelesin bahasa afrika.. hehehe...

mmmm...kemarin latian dance buat manggung pas Fancy Nite...sekarang kaki gua pegel2 deh.. urgh.. to be truth..sebenernya agak males deh begini-beginian..entah kenapa. At first gua kira it would be fun.. It is still fun, tapi rasanya beda aja.

*yawn*
tapi liat yang lain2nya semangat jadi seneng juga sih. ah, tapi yang paling menyenangkan memang stay at home in front of my laptop and let my imagination run wild.. meaning bikin cerita. hehehe..

terus kemarin sempet ke BEC juga sih sama Nuy, and she told me bout this new guy in her life. and somehow I can't really be happy with her. I'm really the worst bestfriend in the world.
not that I dislike the guy (the guy is really fine), I just don't like it when she seems having an other life that I don't belong there.

okay, I'm sooooo... selfish!
and I always thought that she would never be close with someone stranger to me. I mean, it's really okay with her ex. We hanging out together, do things together... like friends in group. And I don't think I can do that with her new guy. But I guess I have to try it for her. she seems so happy!!

-okay, enough bout that. It's gonna drive me crazy!-

damn, now my back is aching.. huhuhuhu...
nggak sabar deh nunggu Jiwa dibotakin. hihihihi...
Jiw, ayo dong ke tukang cukur..ayoayoayo.

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"you never know your husband until you're married to him."
I kind of doubt it, actually, I don't like the idea at all. I wanna know all about the guy I'm going to marry, and then I would say to myself that I'm not marrying the wrong guy.

I've seen married that failed. my friends, my cousins, my aunty, my friends parents, my friends cousins. Long time ago, I always thought that divorce was just some alien word for people who live alien live. It just happened to actress, model, famous people. Not the people I know, not the couple that smile so happily in their wedding day. not them.

but as I grew older (and wiser I hope), I realised married is not an eternal things to keep for some people, it's not a strong bond between two lovers, it's not a happily ever after-the end of the story. married it's fragile, it broke easily, it dies easily, it ended easily, and before we knew it, the one who said the vow to keep us, make us happy, be with us in joy and sorrow, and always beside us until death do take us apart become the one who make us sorrow, the one who make us cry, the one who we hate so much that it make a relief to broke a vow. a holy vow.

and who knew what would happen after all the ceremony, all the money that wasted, all the photograph in tired smile, all the foods and the drinks, who knew?

and even if I know my guy, who's gonna guarantee he's not gonna change, because people do change, wheter we like or not. they change, so do we.

my mom said, "in marriage, love is never enough. it takes patience and faith."
I try to learn it from my heart.
I really try.
Love is just an illusion, it's never gonna be a real thing. but we do see what that illusion made us. we do see the beauty of it, we do fell the comfort it brings, we do hear the sound of laugh because of it.

when I look my guy I just don't want to believe that what I felt for him is just an illution, it's just a dependable act because we've been together for so long.
I always believe my mom that it takes patience and faith for two people in a relationship.
But I'd like to believe it too, that love is not an illution, it's so real that we decided to put our faith in a man, to patiently keep the relationship.

but I guess I just like the romance too much.

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bisnis yang sekarang sedang kugeluti adalah berjualan majalah impor. yuuuuk...
hehehe..abis seneng sih liat2 majalah impor yang shiny dan wangi. saking seringnya mampir kesana eeeh..disuruh jualan sama mas-masnya. ya gapapa sih mas asal dapet persenan! hehehe

duh, semoga si Otto jadi ngeborong empat majalah. amin. hehehe..
tadi baru buka page nya e.e cummings dan robert frost. wah gua baru liat mukanya e.e cummings ternyata cuco bo.
puisinya yang di in her shoes jadi booming ya? padahal sebelumnya juga udah terkenal banget. mungkin kaya puisi akunya chairil anwar, nge hits lagi gara-gara AADC.

btw, sebenernya tadi lagi survey untuk novel berikutnya..tapi malah "terjebak" rayuan friendster dan blog. argh. lalalala...

mm, pengen tahu gejrot deh ko ga lwat2 ya. biasanya mang2nya menyanyi kalo lewat di depan rumah. hehehe..
seharusnya hari ini nonton The Devil Wears Prada bareng Nuy Rita Aisha.. tapi si Rita harus asistensi. batal deh. hiks..

semoga besok jadi. heheh..
btw, Rit, who's the guy? hihihi..
bajunya di matchingin nih..sma2 merah.. pokoknya besok cerita okay babe?

nah, ayo cit..menulis lagi!!!

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I always like caramel.
especially when added as topping in a butterpecan ice cream! yum.
jika ingat ice cream, selalu ingat toko I scream for ice cream. terus selalu berdua mengemil es krim bersama Nuy.
btw, this is our pic in Sara and Bayu Wedding yesterday.

she look so beautiful! :)
kemarin senang tapi karena kamera laknat bermerek Sanyo. ups, banyak gambar2 yang blurry, termasuk fotoku bersama Jiwa. hiks. liat deh muka gua yang blur. mengerikan.
*wid minta foto dong*

seneng juga kemaren banyak ketemuan sama anak-anak. sekalian silaturahmi.
hehehe..

ngomong2 soal Caramelo, belum selesai juga nih bacanya! terus kemarin di Indomaret aku tergoda membeli buku Soulmate To Late. tertarik karena pengarangnya lulusan desain interior ITB juga. Ha!
tapi baru baca lima halaman pertama.

sejujurnya aku tak bisa menahan untuk tidak membaca To Kill A Mockingbird.
hehehe..
terus disana ketemua sama Aisha dan Rita, terus kita janjian nonton The Devil Wears Prada Senin besok. gotta be fun!

-ciao-

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hari ini wedding day nya Sara dan Bayu, tadi jam 11 baru dapet sms dari Nuy bahwa mereka sudah akad nikah, officially husband and wife!!
*wow*
it's really happen!

gimana ya rasanya menikah? terikat? bertanggung jawab? happy? bebas? dewasa? ah.. rasanya masih lama buat gua untuk tahu jawabannya..
The idea of getting married right now really scares me.. gua rasa itu karena gua belum siap. gua rasa karena gua ingin semua settle dengan baik. house, car, job. Tapi gak semua semudah itu juga ya?

gua tahu beberapa temen gua udah married, accidentally or not. hehehe.. tapi tetep aja rasanya kalo Bayu sama Sara yang nikah gua masih amazed, because they're really close friend of mine! jadinya gua pengen tau ajaaa soal gimana rencana mereka ke depan? babies? jobs? study? terus terus gimana sih rasanya dari pacaran jadi suami?

ah..bener deh kayanya masih jauh buat gua!!
sekarang Jiwa lagi ada di rumah membaca Cek and Ricek tentang gosipnya PeterPan sambil makan chocolate crossaint nya Bread Talk, in an hours we'll be getting ready to the wedding, rasanya natural aja dia ada disini, duduk di sofa, not talking to me but we've found comfort. apa itu ya rasanya nanti kalau tinggal serumah?

pokonya sekarang aku sayang banget sama Jiwa.
love him so much.
muah!

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akhirnya gua bisa membeli buku itu!!!! oh menyenangkan sekali...
tapi bungkus plastiknya belum gua buku hehehehe...
biar selesein dulu baca Caramelo-nya.
Kemaren beli di IP, bareng Sasa (terpaksa harus mengeluarkan duit 20000 untuk double chocolate-nya Gloria's Coffee..hix). Sasa juga minta bukunya Sitta Karina yang baru, yang secondnya Lukisan Hujan...menarik menarik..gua udah baca dikit kalo Sasa lagi tidur. hahaha..

Buku yang pengen gua beli lagi:
-bukunya Milan Kundera yang tentang secret admirer
-lanjutannya Grass For His Pillow..
-Mimpi Einstein.
-Kite Runner.
-Amy Tan yang baru keluar.. ohohoho...

yak, nabung chit.

ngomong-ngomong soal progress tulisan gua..
hiks sepertinya gua agak bingung dengan kemana sih arahnya tulisan ini?
yang jelas gua pingin bikin bukan sekedar cerita cinta biasa, tapi cerita tentang relationship, hubungan antar kamu dan pacar, orangtua, temen, saudara.
it's not as easy as I think. :(

yah yang jelas gua butuh research lagi. hohoho.
ayo semangat.
sneng deh ada orang yang baca buku gua dan memberikan testi atau comment... seneng.
bikin semangat!!

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...adalah bukunya Amy Tan yang baru selesai gua baca. bukunya pinjem dari taman bacaan Hendra dan halaman-halamannya sudah menguning dan lemes..but it was great. sayang di toko buku belum ada cetakan ulangnya...

bulan kemarin sungguh menyenangkan, disaat lagi resah karena tak ada duit, tiba-tiba melihat sebuah surat tergeletak dari puspaswara yang berisikan tanda bukti pengiriman uang royalti dari buku gua dulu. it was like a letter from heaven.. hehehe..

jadi Lebaran ini bisa beliin mama baju Lebaran dan beli long cardigan dari Noir Sur Blanc, item yang udah lama kuincar!!! ohohoho..
terus..terus..terus..pingin beli buku To Kill A Mockingbirdnya Harper Lee..tapi sumpe emang mahal ya buku-buku sekarang.. harganya skitar 50rb-an hiks.

sabtu ini nikahannya Sara dan Bayu..so excited!
By, Ra, semoga kalian live happily ever after ya.
hehehe.. so happy for you guys.
terus gua jaitin baju di penjait deket rumah. murah..jiwa juga jaitin jas..ohoho.

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